The Boredom is Similarity

Unfortunately, boredom is a silent killer. Why? When we don't have things to do to keep ourselves "entertained" or productive, it is hard to stay positive and feel good. However, I always seem to find ways to stay busy.

Here is an example of how I do that:









I made a short video or movie of some pictures of me over the past few years. It is interesting to see all the changes I have had in even just a physical aspect.

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Inspiration or Bullshit

You will never meet another person in life quite like me. I am "one-of-a-kind", as should be each person you should ever meet in your life. Each person you meet has good qualities and bad. It's part of life. Like they say, "One man's trash can be another man's treasure". If there is something that you don't really like about someone it does not mean that you shouldn't like them as a person. The qualities, beliefs, and things they do are what makes them "them". It is what makes me "me" and you "you". It's part of life.

The things I post on here, are what closely resembles the "true" me. They are little "pieces" of my soul being put out in the open for all to see. But we must remember, "It's not who you are underneath, it is what you do that defines you." This is true for me. What I say on here is the same as I would say in person. This is just a way of sharing my thoughts and feelings with the world. You can touch more people with the internet then with any other media today.

That is what brings us to the topic of "Inspiration or Bullshit". Everything I say, everything I do, and everything I think are true. I do not change for other people or try to portray something I am not. I am who I am. Although, with time everyone goes through changes in life. I do not change for someone else, the changes I make in my life are those I feel are necessary for me to make to become what I feel is a better person.

When I write things that may seem a little bit "out there", really "deep", or anything in between there is a point to it. The point is to "pass on" or portray things that I feel or believe to others. I will not force my opinions or beliefs down someone's throat, just the same as I would hope they would not do to me. I really enjoy having in depth, thoughtful conversations with people about things in life, death, or whatever we may want to discuss. The world is full of knowledge and good things out there for everyone to grasp.

If I can "touch one life", or change one person for the better, then I have changed the world. I end this post with a poem that I wrote back in the 8th grade, that was roughly 8 years ago for those folks who don't know how old I am. A poem that means a lot to me, not just because I wrote it; but because it is me. I live by this "poem" or quote and I think that more people should feel the same way.

If I have one life to live
Or one day in which to give,
A friendly smile, a helping hand
A mind that tries to understand.
-- David McClain 1998

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I Ramble On Too Much

Although much of what I say is usually "fatalistic venting", there is usually some reason that I write what I write. Looking back over my old posts, even since my first one, I can see a change that I have made in my life. We are always changing, usually and hopefully, for the better. I like to think that as time has gone by that I am changing for the better too; or at least not for the worst. This will be similar to my other posts, with the exception that I hope it will be more positive and inspiring. I take that back, I don't hope it will be, I know it will be. If you read what is written only just to read, then you are not a good reader. If you read and take into consideration what is said, you observe a much deeper, stronger, more powerful and meaningful message that each person tries to portray through writing. That is "inspiration number 1".

"Why do we fall?" I ask each person who just read that sentence to read it one more time. Think for a second before moving on about what I mean. The answer, we fall so we can get up again. Even as a child when we were first learning to walk, we would stand up and walk for a few steps. Everyone would be cheering you on and be so happy, and when you fell everyone was "pushing" you to get up again. You then learned that each time you feel that people would be there when you feel to "push you" or "motivate" you to get back up again. Once you realized that it was nothing great that you were walking, it did not impress anyone we started to run. Again we would fall, but we would be comforted and helped to stand up again only to run away.

This same thing would happen for many different points in our lives. Learning to swim, riding a bike, rollerblading, and other physical activities there would always be someone there to help us or encourage us to get back up. This carries on to more than just "learning physical skills" or training our motor skills. This goes on to relationships, goals (short or long term), and many other "facts of life".

For example: your first crush. Do you remember how it went? Maybe perhaps, the first person you were "in love" with. What happened when things went wrong foul? You had friends and family encouraging you to try someone new. "Oh they are just a jerk." or "What an asshole? They don't deserve you anyway!" You could have heard many of these different things to try to encourage you to get back into "the game"; to give someone or just dating in general another chance.

This is something that from a young age we have been "preprogrammed" to understand and to do. When we fall down, we always got back up again. Each time we "fall" we learn something. Sometimes if we didn't learn, we would fall again, maybe even a few more times. Eventually though, we would learn our lesson and not fall again. We learn from our mistakes and grow stronger. Mistakes is not the right word. We learn from experiences. That is what makes us better people.

I end this post with thoughts of encouragement. I hope that next time you fall, you remember that there will be people to help you up again. People who want to help you and really enjoy seeing you succeed. Here's hoping the next time you fall you bounce up twice as strong as before and better than you have ever been before.

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Getting Kicked When You Are Down

The story of my life, getting kicked when you are down. I have tried my best to remain more optimistic during the past couple of months, would like to remain that way for some time. I have run into yet another cycle of what I am use to now. This I consider a period of getting kicked when down.

Let's see it all started Saturday December 10th, the morning following my birthday here at the house. When leaving the house to get ready to get some food and run some errands; my car blew up less than 2 miles from my house. Luckily I had not gotten on the freeway yet, which I was just about to. Unfortunately, both my roommates were with me too. We all got to walk back to the house, after pushing the car out of traffic, in the nice 10 degree whether that Ohio offers us for half the year. This puts me in dilemma number 1 with no transportation to work, and guess what I would be starting a new job that Monday December 12th. New job and no transportation to get there, things were looking great.

Fortunately enough, I was able to get my training schedule, for the most part, to be the same as my roommate Steve, so as I could get to work with no problem and home the same. This was a plus for now. Now I had transportation to work, go me. But yet work was just as a I feared. Another pointless job that was extremely boring and not like anything I wanted to do. I will make the most of the situation because that is what I have to do. I never say I don't have any choices or any options, because there are always other options. But walking to Wendy's which is 4 miles away from where I live for $6 an hour in the middle of winter, does not sound all that much more pleasing.

Also my cell phone had decided to break on me. It was a hardware issue I had no control over. Well, I got that fixed or I thought I did until tonight. The phone is completely fried now. It won't do anything, the best part is I do not have a vehicle to go to the store to get it fixed, nor do I have chance to go to a store, because of my schedule, until sometime after the New Year begins. Now I am "phone less", but I still get to pay the bill even though I can't use it and no one can get a hold of me. But as I always say, "You will have that sometimes".

More "good news". My car was impounded by the police for being on the side of the road too long, I guess. I now lost everything in it ($1200 worth of stereo equipment, some clothes, and pictures of my family from the most recent get together which can't be replaced) and the ability to have it towed to the junk yard for some money. Since I have been working for $5.25 an hour at Donato's for the past month and my rent was already almost 2 months behind; it was no wonder I couldn't get it towed in time. Absolutely awesome. But again, that is what life is about. Ups and downs and usually more downs then ups.

As the song goes, "I will survive". I always have so far; there is no reason I would think that I won't this time. It just is another point in my life that "sucks". At least for now I will save on gas and insurance. As time goes on I wonder if this will be a never ending cycle of moving ahead in life a little, then getting shot back down. It seems as if each time I would move forward in a good way, when I fell back I fell farther than I had before. However, I was always able to regain ground and hopefully by the time it happens again, I will be overly prepared for it with all the other times it has happened.

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Side Post : Keeping It Real

Ok I am still in pre-launch for a web forum I am trying out.

It's free. No need for any money or stuff like that. All I ask is for people to voice their opinion when and where they like. The more input from everyone all around the better it will be in the end.

I am starting a forum that deals with advice for many different things including: Family Advice, Relationship Issues; Life Thoughts and Quotes (Questions); and much more to come. I feel that if everyone gives their two cents the community will be able to reach out and help each other.

The main reason I started this is because I want to write a book in the future regarding some of these issues and I am tired of all the "out of touch" MD's writing books and I want something that relates more to the average person. What better way to do that then base actual research off of what actual people believe?

So please check it out (don't forget to bookmark it). Again it is still in what I am calling "prelaunch" because there are not a lot of members (which there is free membership) and not a lot of topics. If you have any suggestions feel free to reply on here or email me suggestions. I have already put a lot of time in and only plan to put a lot more into it.

Thanks in advance.

David

Keepin' It Real

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Havin' Fun Bein' 21

Wow. Thanks to everyone that came out to the Birthday Parties. They were the best parties I have had or been to ever. Always fun.

Unfortunately, all good things must come to an end. I have been struggling with trying to find sufficient employment. Currently I have been "underemployed"; not "unemployed" or not working; but not making enough to go anywhere in life, but get more behind. I have been seeking employment through many various "networking" options along with the standard newspapers, online, "walk-ins", and other cold callings. I have finally been offered a position to work at a company that my roommate works for. I am not ecstatic about the job or anything like that, but as long as it will eventually allow me to get caught up, then I will give it 110%. I start Monday and we will see how things go and hope for the best.

Also as a "bonus" on top of everything that has happened to me that has actually been good; my wonderful car blew up. I am so excited (not really for those who can't see the sarcasm). Now it makes me wonder if my mom still thinks I "live like a millionaire". I have two non-usable cars now that will be going to the junkyard on Tuesday; a motorcycle; several "personal possessions of personal value"; and I live in a house. Sounds like a "millionaire" to me. Oh well, that's one person's opinion.

Tomorrow I start a new job and eventually things will get better I hope.

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You Don't Have To Lie To Kick It

As of 12 am last night, I am officially no longer a minor. Yes it's true. I have now went through that "magical" change when a person's body can "all of sudden" handle alcohol. It is weird though, because I don't feel any different. I wonder why?

I had a party at the bar next to Minelli's Pizza. It was a blast there was roughly 15 people there for me specifically. My sister and her current "boo" William came as well. The night started off pretty good and the drinking began at midnight. Loads of fun.

There will be another party here Friday at our house and Grove City. There should be 4 times as many people and it should be off the hook! Look forward to follow up posts about it. Until then havin' fun bein' 21!!!

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Side Post

Call me out, you stayed inside. One you love is where you hide. Shot me down as I flew by, crash and burn. I think sometimes you forget where the heart is. Answer no to these questions. Let her go, learn a lesson. It's not me, you're not listening now. Can't you see something's missing? You forget where the heart is. Waking up from this nightmare, how's your life, what's it like there? Is it all what you want it to be? Does it hurt when you think about me and how broken my heart is? It's okay to be angry and never let go. It only gets harder the more that you know. When you get lonely if no one's around, you know that I'll catch you when you're falling down. We came together but you left alone and I know how it feels to walk out on your own. Maybe someday I will see you again and you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend. Take you away from that empty apartment. You stay and forget where the heart is. Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay.

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Thanks For Giving

Not very many new things have happened over the past week. I did have a decent Thanksgiving with my family. Suprisingly, there were no fighting between me and any of my family members. There was always a lot of encouragement from my family to do what I want to do, and a lot of praise too. Although I am in another little rut in life right now, I am still staying strong and motivated and working hard on the things I want to.

Right now I plan to concentrate on my own personal goals and agendas to further my accomplishments in life. I have recently got my server up and running for my websites; I need to do some upgrading to improve their efficiency though also. I have also started to develop a "game plan" for a web development business that I plan to start as soon as I get my personal finances better prepared for such a venture.

Currently, I am staying single right now. Although I have been out on a few dates, I think that for right now it is best I concentrate on my own agendas. I don't really feel that way, but my head says that would be the best. There is someone still on my mind. I feel completely helpless to the fact that I can not escape the thoughts of this person. I can not explain why, and I feel helpless and unable to stop such thoughts. The best thing I can do is to try to move on with my life, but it's the hardest thing to do.

Coming up on this Wednesday, December 7th, I will be having a 21st birthday party at the bar next to Minelli's Pizza on Hilliard-Rome Road. Everyone is welcome that is at least 18 and up. But you must absolutely be 21 and up to drink. The party will start at approximately 11 o'clock, although some will be there at 10 or so. Since my birthday is not till December 8th, at 12 we will have a "toast" to kick off the night. There will be another party at our house in Grove City on Friday night, starting at 11 pm. Everyone is welcome to that one as well. For directions get a hold of me.

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